ain | ailin| alexis| beat| belinda| chungui | daniel| daryl| | junliang| junlin| kairu| maz| | sharon| siim ann| syah| wingZ| xiuZ| yiling| yuhua|

[[about me]]
--~^*layZ*^~--
~i just wanna be happy~



[[likes]]
. pink! . shopping . desperate housewives . the OC . amazing race . survivor . sun-tanning . peanuts! .


[[hates]]
--KKism--


[[the past]]


byeeeee
Thursday, January 12, 2006, 11:28 a.m.

i've moved... ask me, i might tell you...

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diao xia qu le..
Sunday, January 8, 2006, 04:08 p.m.

i've fallen IN...

now i hafta get OUT...

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new year
Sunday, January 1, 2006, 08:48 p.m.

actually...i was abit angry last night...

new year...new beginning...new blog?

time to move soon...

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wat...
Sunday, December 25, 2005, 10:29 p.m.

I GOT FOOLED...

ARGH!...

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merry christmas!!!
Sunday, December 25, 2005, 01:17 p.m.

"we wish you a merry christmas, we wish you a merry christmas, we wish you a merry christmas and a happy new year!"

hey hey!!!merry christmas everyone!!! i actually stayed at home for christmas for the past 18years...and this time, i went out! for dinner! then went clubroom to watch vcdS...the highlight of yesterday was using clubroom phone to call lotsa pple! wishing them merry christmas and using that da er long kinda tone to "ARLOW ARLOW ARLOW!"...haha...

weizhen: yoZ babe!!!:):):) really touched when i got the christmas present for you...you're always there for me when i needed you...but i wasnt the same to you...i got loads to say to you!will write to you soon!!!just wanan let you know that ypu're still my bestest friend!!!thanks for supporting me all these while...you encouraged me to run for MC and stood by me ever since..*hugZ*...

weichee: hey hey...sorry la! dun mind to apng sei you!!! im really a lousy friend!!! but i let you pang sei me on monday k?den we can go out on tue!!!i PROMISED!!! missed talking to you...

jj: LIM JING JUN!:P...liu nian le...liu nian de mo qi...hai xu yao shuo ma?...ok la, hui shuo de...:P

jingyi!!!: jingyi!!! bu yao pian wo k!...haha...realli miss u!!!...though we;re not that close now, i believe its just because we;re not spending ebough time with each other and communicating...i still love ya!!!really!!!*hugZ*..we continue to yan our signature scence from ROP camp!!!

minmin!: my dear min min!!! hao jjiu bu jian!!! when cna we go k!!!...i feel blessed to have known the haidaiS tat of course include u i my uni life!!! u really brought laughter to my life!!! so so so glad that we made an effort to keep in touch!:)

fellow 26th MC: great knowing all of you! hope that 26th will be closer and more united!:) love ya all!!! especially my shu shu...haha...

maly: auntie!!! i miss you!!!...

huiling: miss you too!!! *big hugZ* both of us in MC...must jia you!!!

sagira+sashimi: heys!!! i feel blessed to have known you al!!! ever so supportive in what im doing and its heart warming to know that you guys are around for me...what more can i ask for?:)...we must all go arts camp and create havoc!!!

laste but not least, sista jono and my dear sining!!!: great seniors that i've known in NUS!!!*BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG HUG!* you two are one of the best thgisn that happend to me...thanks for all the care and concern you two have showered on me...

all frens that i din mention, not that i forget you all!!! maz! siim ann! my ai ren! beat! ailin! wingZ! angel! cindy! joyce! shao! mandy!!! fiona! ah seng! chee harn! too many to name!!! i hope all of you have a great year ahead!!!:):):)

strange enough, after last night, i suddenly got inspired out of nowhere to work...zhen zuo zhen zuo...i hope it last..."how are you?"...dunno..

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-BWANG-
Friday, December 23, 2005, 11:44 a.m.

my CAP sux... *roars*

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go away!
Monday, December 12, 2005, 12:44 p.m.

you can go eat shit and die!

make aure you really die!

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finally...
Saturday, December 10, 2005, 12:48 p.m.

im ready...

finally ready to write FOP proposals...


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Sunday, December 4, 2005, 12:46 a.m.

im tired of these thinking...

____________________________________ i wish i could do something...

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post get drunk nite!
Friday, December 2, 2005, 10:28 p.m.

once again...i question myself, what am i doing at home on a friday night?!?!?...its the same feeling i got on wed night...:(...

alright, i wasnt drunk last nite...but SEI...as in REALLY SEI...bt im a rational person,haha...i really think so...that's why when i know i cmi le, i stopped drinking...just lied down..anyway i was having a terrible headache, and stomach very pain...or rather, its gastric pain?...duno why though...its funny seeing differntpple reactig in different ways...haha...bt, i told myself i wun wnana be like last nite...its a terrible feeling...BUT...its hard to say...MAYBE something will make me drink...even more...

im so so so irritated by my brother...all his consant taunting's driving me crazy!...i so much wanna stay at home and slack...partly cause im still hum ls, my parents...but im really irritated...seriously considering the option of staying in hall...though i'll be BROKE...real BROKE...

make me happy~

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i cant...
Thursday, December 1, 2005, 12:12 p.m.

even if i have 0 to go on a shopping spree now...

sad to say...

i cant...

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i think so too..
Tuesday, November 29, 2005, 03:19 p.m.

haha...got this from mary's blog..sorry i took it without her consent!but i seriously agree with wat she wrote..haha..i dun hav that feeling anymore oso...

Anyway,I want to continue from where I left yesterday night.On the topic of boys and girls...a friend's recent blog entry struck a chord in me.I do miss the feeling of waiting anxiously for a message to appear on msn and my phone.The feeling is quite a nerve wrecking experience,with all the conjured weird assumptions should someone fail to message at least within the first half hour I sent the message.Maybe you know,he is avoiding me or maybe he knows I like him!?And in consolation,I'd tell myself maybe the phone isn't with him,or maybe he's busy now,or maybe he's playing games etc etc.And I do miss the feeling of getting that much awaited message.Let me describe the feeling of exhilaration.First the message alert sound that goes something like this,'terrrerrrlang!'And the message reads '1 message received from *******'And I'd go,'oooooh!yes!'followed by a wide smile that could just crack my face in half.And the butterflies in the stomach that won't go away and a secret wish for him to reply back the message I sent back.Or the message alert that appears on msn,that blinking orange light that flickers continously,that simply warms my heart or make my day.I miss it all.And the strange thing is,I never thought about THE feeling till I read my friend's blog.Its all part of the process of liking someone.

But what really goes on after that continuous game of 'tennis'?So what if he replies your messages and lace it with a smattering of 'dears'and'sweeties'?So what if he initiates msn conversations?That doesn't mean anything.What you choose to believe in is your own construction of reality and an influence of society on you.Imagine,you tell your friend so and so does this and that,and your friend interprets it conveniently as 'oh he likes you!!'.Is it really true judgement?Perhaps,your friend interpreted it so because you're her friend and she doesn't want to be a wet blanket.For all you know,your friend may have something with the guy and doesn't know how to break the heartbreaking news to you.See,even my speculations are up for contention!I could say that you chose to be influenced and swayed by your friend's interpretations.Such power is the power of suggestion.Or it could be a general universal understanding among girls that when a guy does this,it means he likes you.The world is made up of constructed reality,langugage is a play of words and nothing holds true.

In a month,I have had quite a few of such conversations with guys over my singlehood.Is it a convention for a girl to be attached at least once?I think it is.Because if my 'abnormalcy' could shock my guy friends and cause sucha hooha over it,it must be a convention,and that I'm a deviation.At first,I can't deny that I questioned myself.Maybe there really was something wrong with me.But as I grew up,I realized that my singlehood is a choice I made and firmly stuck by it.I did break a few guys' heart but it was crucial because I knew that I wasn't ready for anything like the burden of another relationship.My studies came first.If my parents could make so many sacrifices for me,the least I can do is concentrate on my studies,get my O levels,A levels cleared and get that degree fast.But now,at the age of 20,I really wonder what it is like to be in a relationship.Wondering is not a sign of disappointment or inferiority.But just pure curiousity.Just like how you wonder how I was never attached.Just a night ago,I had a conversation with a guy friend.He thought I was always popular,artyfartyparty girl who always had a train of suitors.And you can bet on your last dollar I was flabbergasted!It was very flattering no doubt about it but that thought had never crossed my mind.Truth be told,I never liked attention and would always slink back into the background in a situation where attention is drawn to me.Its not a matter of inferiority I beg to reinforce but its more of a disdain for attention because its unneccessary.Thus,his definition of 'hot property' reminded myself,I'm definitely the opposite of it,I'm old property at age of 20.

But now as I think about it,I reminisce about the dream guy I always thought of when I was a young girl.Tall,tan and toned.Ahahahah..talk about alliteration and the significance of the letter T.T is a tall letter don't you think?But that is so superficial now as I think about it.It would be bonus if my future boyfriend fulfils just ONE criteria.I would prefer it to be reasonably tall,by the way.If you're white,you can tan.If you're plump,you can gym.So no worries at all.HAHA!I realised the inner beauty is SOOOO much more important after having met some people that totally disgust the hell out of me.But then again,when is there ever a perfect guy with a oh-so-perfect personality?

Do you believe then in 'THE ONE'?That is a special someone for everyone out there?Honestly,I have stopped believing in such fairytale stories of consolation to the swinging singles out there,regardless of whether he/she got dumped,rejected,divorced etc.I can't believe that I was so dumb as to believe in such things.You may have met the one,but some years down the road,you wonder,have you really met the one?Is there someone out there in the world better than this asswipe you have gotten as your boyfriend or bitch as your girlfriend?

haha!I can tell you that this topic is NOT exhaustive.I could go on and on but there really isnt' any point this.

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shageli...
Monday, November 28, 2005, 11:33 p.m.

i realised that im stupid...yes...stupid...i know that i'll get upset reading those entries but i still go ahead(-_-"... anw, i LOVE harry potter!!!:):):)

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S C R E W E D
Thursday, November 24, 2005, 08:02 p.m.

im dead...officially dead!!!e lang suX la!!!!...but i only have myself to blame...although its open book, ita real TOUGH!...as in realli!...im not the kind who'll make noise unnecessarily...when i say i might fail, i mean it...ARGH...i resign to fate if i realli hafta ta bao, but my CAP will be affected!...ARGH!!!!...i brought all these to myself...i onlyhave myself to blame!!!...im so demoralised...how am i gona survive my last paper on sat???...*sigh*...

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:)
Saturday, November 19, 2005, 08:55 p.m.

thks for believeing in me!:):):)

i realised, exams' not as bad as i thought its gona be...exceot for the get-fat part...haha...maybe im just immuned...

and i realised, IT's not as bad as i though it would be...

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friends..
Tuesday, November 15, 2005, 11:43 a.m.

i realised its always the same way...i was just going thru my blog with bit bit ytd...and the same things are happening...actually i dun hafta type this entry,i can just copy n paste one of the previous entries...liked what i asked bit bit, is it submissive or accommodating?...hmZ...

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dun promise what u cant do...
Tuesday, November 8, 2005, 09:07 a.m.

i feel kinda sian tat i've started 2days of my week...BAD...actualli if i were to be more optimistic, its not considered bad la...ytd all the exam tea n dirty laundry nonsense bugging me...dis morning late...wait...alone...i just dun like the feeling i guess?...but it makes me come to a realisation...REALISATIOn...haha...like again...things are still the way they were...dun ever be too happy tking tat things are different now...in fact, they're the same...just like those times...its now 9.06am only gal...cheer up!!!you still got a long day to go...or rather long WEEK...

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sun promise what u cant do...
Tuesday, November 8, 2005, 09:07 a.m.

i feel kinda sian tat i've started 2days of my week...BAD...actualli if i were to be more optimistic, its not considered bad la...ytd all the exam tea n dirty laundry nonsense bugging me...dis morning late...wait...alone...i just dun like the feeling i guess?...but it makes me come to a realisation...REALISATIOn...haha...like again...things are still the way they were...dun ever be too happy tking tat things are different now...in fact, they're the same...just like those times...its now 9.06am only gal...cheer up!!!you still got a long day to go...or rather long WEEK...

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wat do you wan?...
Thursday, October 13, 2005, 11:58 p.m.

wat do YOU wan?...if u dun mind wat u say, dun do it...why are u always raising my hopes then snatching them away from me...its not the first time le...i've had enuf...dunch u noe wat LOYAL?...dun get yourself attached just for the sake of having one...im tired of all these shit...i noe u're a gd fren, but when will u learn to take thigns SERIOUSLY?...

wat do YOU wan?...i tot we've talked things over?...y cant u just put down all your guards and open up to me?...i tired...realli tired...i cant do it anymore..i've given up hope on you...de guy whom i tot wun let me get hurt...but i am hurt...

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give me strength..
Wednesday, October 12, 2005, 09:13 p.m.

i feel tired...to be on an emotional rollercoaster...the feeling suX...i was on cloud nine...den everything just crumbled down...why am i still trying so hard?...why am i still holding on?...i shant care anymore...its not worth it..i must focus...focus on my e lang mid term...my term papers..arts open...welfare projects.. ~^*i need strength*^~

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leav me alone!!!
Monday, September 19, 2005, 12:45 a.m.

i tot i wun need to use this blog again... i tot i wun say negative in my blog again...but im wrong...maybe its the strss of being in mc?...mayb its the stress from laggig behind in studies?...or its just the tiredness that'sbeen accumulating in me for the past few weeks?...but whatever it is, i jsut cant stand her...my toleration's been met...STOP!!!LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

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totS...
Thursday, August 11, 2005, 08:34 a.m.

I seriously don’t understand why im so submissive to you…I can take your every word so seriously, always there for you, accommodate you…but why cant I feel it coming out from you? Im yet again disappointed…I can choose you over others…but why cant you sacrifice for me?…the little gifts matter to you?…I would rather not have them…perhaps I shouldn’t have expected too much from you anyway…

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my ai ren!!!:)
Wednesday, July 27, 2005, 10:04 a.m.

just read my ai ren's blog...woah!!! she blogged so much since i last read her blog!haha...come to think of it, i've alr stop visiting blogs often until just 5mins ago...i decided to click on my ai ren's blog to c how she's doing:) great to see that she's doing fine and having lotsa fun in her uni life!!!yay!!!happy for u!kidna miss u...hope we'll hav a chance to met up sooN! *hugZ!*

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im a happy gal:)
Friday, July 8, 2005, 10:28 p.m.

im a happy gal...yes...enjoying life before uni starts...but i cant help but get irritated by YOU!!! and YOU!!! and YOU YOU YOU!!!blahZ...

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too late...
Saturday, June 18, 2005, 10:32 a.m.

a phrase we used to joke about harmlessly actually means something to me...TOO LATE...haha...things will just slip away when you do not treasure them...nothing's definite in this world...regrets?...TOO LATE...spend the rest of the hols fruitfully...spend it the way you want it to be...start accomplishing the tasks u listed down...dun let there be another TOO LATE...

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*morning!!!*
Tuesday, June 14, 2005, 09:05 a.m.

its like only 9plus in de morning?...and i've been up since 7am...oh gawd...cant you let me sleep more?...im so envious of my frens who're still away in their sleep playing their gameSSSSS of chess with zhou gong...hahas...LAME...but really, i miss (shit, my leg's numb and my hp's ringing...)sleeping in late!...de "latest" i can get is...11am?blahS...

what have i been doing?...nothing...hahas...as in nothing constructive or what...but let me tell you, its a G R E A T feeling to just nua the whole day at home...even if its just lying on de sofa watching those lousy tv shows...no pressure, no stress and most of all, NO HURRY!hahas...this is life man...to think that i've slogged six months in my previous company...i deserve this luxury!*grinZ*not forgetting going out with my friends...just spending money on food i like, clothes i fancy....now now, dun get it wrong, i've never like the idea of splurging and dun think my opinion will change in de near future(unless i become a tai tai which is highly impossible,haha)...just that it's really different for me now that i have savings from my 6months of hardwork...fruit of my labour!:)which i din use as much as others cause i dun really go out during that time...

ive been feeling better...think all the going out and stuff have been making me feel more confident of myself...:) hope this continues...though it wavers quite often...especially last night...hahas...i've been wanting to take up tuition kidS cause i've heard of the high expenses in uni and stuff...and i've been procrastinating...you see, i want a really fulfilling life-going for lotsa activites and stuff...at the same time not leglecting my studies...all these will attribute to one impt factor- TIME...den on sun night, my neoighbour came knocking on my door asking if i wana take her sons for tuition...so...now i got lobang...but dunno to accept anot...so typical me...think alot...worry alot...blahS...

on a lighter note, my aunt told me my uncle(her brother hor) wants to sponser abit of pkt money for me during uni...so...shall i take de tuition job?...and guess how much my mum say wanna give me when i asked her?... per day(-_-")...hahas...she even say she'll cook packed lunches for me!...she's kidding of course...but i dun wanan burden her financially too...*thinking*thinking*thinking*...somebody help me!:P

oh the other time i keep bumping into my 2C classmates...first i met rebecca for 2consecutive days at 2 different places...den fen niu at JP while i was queueing up to buy my fave waffle...and ade when i was getting out of boon lay MRT station...while having gathering with ling+angel+cindy(cindy oso my 2C classmates(-_-") hahas...) saw fongpeng+serene+linjin at bugis...and guess wat, last sat me+zhen+wc+branson+jing had a gathering at BUGIS CAFE(sells yummy muffins!!!)afterwhich jing left and de 4 of us went suntec cause branson meeting his AJ frens...we met wen hao who's branson jc classmate oso ma...and when 3 of us were walking towards suntec, we met tingshu+toonlee...how small is the world?!?!...hahas...and last nite...while 4 of us were talkign at JP foodcourt, we vaguely saw soonsheng!!!cant confirm cause the guy we saw got long hair!!!OMG!!!so...waiting to see otehjr 2C pple...wonder how they all look now...

oh how about me? do i look the same? hahs...ok, show's starting...take care pple!!! ask me out!:)

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S I C K
Wednesday, June 1, 2005, 10:51 p.m.

woke up 2plus in de morning...feeling as if my whole body was on fire...felt as if my head was splitting...so miserable...i though it'll go away after awhile,when i slipped back to sleep...but apparently it was so bad that i couldnt...so i went to woke my mum up in de end:)...she gav me panadol la...but thats it...so there i was alone in my room, battling with the fever again...its only 38.6(never reached that before though)...time was passing so slowly...whichever side i slept on did not make me feel better...i din manage to sleep at all:(...oh wells, after 5long hours its FINALLY MORNING...i see LIGHT...my mum accompany me for some time before she went to work...my fever subsided but i still feel kinda weak...cough abit here and there...sore throat...tmr still got the roadshow!!!ARGH!!!...feel liek ponning:P...

maly:auntie, where art thou??? been trying to contact u but to no avail...contact me soon ya? miss ya!:)

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dun u understand?...
Thursday, May 26, 2005, 09:21 p.m.

why dun you understand...

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Tuesday, May 24, 2005, 10:55 p.m.

pls dun...

dun do that to me again...

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hmZ...
Tuesday, May 17, 2005, 10:23 a.m.

Your Birthdate: February 19
Your birth on the 19th day of the month adds a tone of independence and extra energy to your life path. But at the same time, it poses a number of obstacles to overcome before you are able to be as independent as you would like. The number 1 energy suggests more executive ability and leadership qualities than your path may have indicated. A birthday on the 19th of any month gives greater will power and self-confidence, and very often a rather original approach. However, a somewhat self-centered approach to life that may be in conflict with some of the other influences in your life. This 1 energy may diminish your ability and desire to handle details, preferring instead to paint with a broad brush. You are sensitive, but your feeling stay somewhat repressed. You have a compelling manner that can be dominating in many situations. You do not tend to follow convention or take advice very well. Consequently, you tend to learn through experience; sometimes hard experiences. The 19/1 is a loner number and you may experience feelings of being alone even if you are married. You may take on a tendency to be nervous and angry.

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new layout!!!
Wednesday, May 11, 2005, 11:31 a.m.

since im so free at work...i freed myself from playing yahoo games and finally set down to change my blog layout...and TA DA!!! i've done it!...eh, not bad rite?...quite proud of myself k, making simple changes is quite difficult to me considering what a computer idiot i am...hahas...

i mentioned i wana quit soon rite?...apparently there's been lotsa AGAINST votes for my decision...and im definitely swayed by those voices knowing how indecisive i am...hence, i've list down the proS+conS(as if it helps!hahas)

PROs
1)stop my eyesight from deteriorating!!!
2)reduce my sugar input-i drink AT LEAST 1 cup of teh-peng in my office and all the otehr sinful things i eat...blahS
3)escape from kkism!!!-kkism=fakeness...yupZ, everyone's so fake here, always trying to be politically correct or being sarcastic...i need more sincere pple!!!
4)do things which i like eg slacking at home:p my theory is im gona work for THE REST OF MY LIFE after uni,why so pia now?...
5)i really hope to find a job at a cafe to experiecne something new! *grinZ*

CONs
1)i shld work longer so taht i can have more savings for uni?and oso more money to spend now...
2)work here is SO SLACK that i can play yahoo games...MSN...slack...easy money(BUT BORING JOB)
3)its near my house!

that's it...not gona think so much, at least not for today liao...i've over-talked about it...hahas...sorrY!

oh, i was talking to my colleague last nite and she told me she got this friend who hired a personal traininer in a gym...that friend signed up for a 25-sessions package(each session cost ++) and a 1yr membership with that gym...the catch is to do the exercise regime planned by that traininer 3times per week not having to restrict what he eats at all! and in the end, he DID lost weight, in fact alot!...zai rite!...she also told me of her ANOTHER friend who went CENOSIS and spend over ten thousands there attaining the same weight loss result...given a choice i would choose the FORMER, cheaper!!!!hahas...most importantly, its a healthier choice ba...i need to lose weight, blahZ...

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an easier day...
Monday, May 9, 2005, 08:45 a.m.

its monday...AGAIN...which means 5more days to weekend...5more days to freedom...and 5more days to HIS(dad)bday....hahas...you get what i mean...im gonna end my misery soon, quitting earliest this fri latest next fri...another day at this inhuman corporate company makes me puke...blahS...so so so looking forwad to the weekends!...thankfully im leaving early today to remove stichtes for my wisdom tooth...and tat means shopping at queensway!!!YAY!!!^_^

i jsut did my hair ytd!!!*woohoo*!!!!colour+highlight+cut+treatment !!!good bargain rite!...hopefully i dun look OLD as my juniors put it the other nite:p...i quite like the new colour and haircut:) the highlight's nt tat obvious leh, dunhave the effect i wanted...blaHS...waste money...BUT...overall...its gd(",)

was kinda irritated by THEM(bro+dad) ytd...firstly, my bro lied to us all that he found some fishes somewhere and borugth them home to rear(which nobody believed at all, hahas)...those fishes cost ++,then the duno what pump..fish tank...racks...in the end im sure THEY spent at least 0(-_-")...quite pissed...for what sia...who's gonna clean the fish tank for HIM when he's in army...blahS...

i was fooling myself that they might probabaly not enjoy it that much?...it might be too difficult?...the weather's not that good?...but deep down inside i was wrong...and true enough when i see her nick...im happy for her, for them, that they enjoyed their trip so much although i din ask them personally,i cant bear to...just felt so stupid, what a fool i was...so what if i eventually go on my own or with others?...it'll not be the same...im just a coward who's good at saying big words but not do it...pathetic...i dun see aby meanign in going on my own...so i'll wait till uni ba..IF i get in:P...i anticipated awkwardness the next time we meet...they'll surely talk abt diving...i dun blame them...i'll try to put up a brave front...u can do it layZ!

he was pretty much agitated last nite when i mentioned that im gonna look for volunteer work to do after i quit my job...his reason being i shld do housework instead of doing volunteer work...i was like so (-_-")cant he understand that its DIFFERENT?!?!?!?!...oh, its so funny that he practically JUMPED when i mentioned the word "VOLUNTEER". he tot im goign to do some overseas CIP again(as if there's chance for em to go knowing his kind)...btw, HE refers to DAD, my dad, no.1 in my most hated list...and to those who might hav thought its my bf or something, fat chance la!...i think i wun be able to get a bf...hahas...who knows i might become an old spinster!!!hahas...

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chun gui:know you'll be in camp these few days and probabaly wun get to read this so soon,but i just wanna tell you that u shldnt be like me constantly having doubts abt yourself...cause before you know it, it'll become part of you and stays with you...im trying to fight it so you too!we shld meet up BEFORE and AFTER your trip!*hugZ*

stayover crew:sorry that i've been bombarding you guys with all my negativity for the past week...hahas...and i was knida quiet during the last dinner we had...i jsut cant let go some stuff so easily...but thanks for being around...wo hui zheng zuo qi lai de!!!

bra(fio):dun think you know of my blog, hahas...but i just so suddenly wanna see you and talk to you...*sniff*sniff*

maZ:not contacting you doesnt mean i've forgotten abt you k...as u shld hav alr known, im a lousy fren who aly fail to go out with you...hahas...you dun sonud happy to me in your blog...and i know that there're stuff constantly bothering you...learn to let go?...easier said than done rite...how i wish i can do something for you...take care gal...

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help?!?!?!
Monday, April 25, 2005, 11:42 a.m.

eh...been trying to change my blog layout bt i realised tat im still quite IT handicapped...hahas...cant seem to get the stuff rite and thus, still dis old layout...i had an urge to blog last wk!!!bt i wanted to change my layput THEN blog...hopefully i can work sumth out soon...

its 11.45am nw and im looking forward to lunch...not because im hungry bt cuse its freezing cold in the office now!!!:Sand i gt nothign to do...since last thur...its so weird cause normally i''ll hav lotsa stuff to do during this payroll period...bt sicne i've gt nth to do, i've been playing yahoo games and indulging in msn chatting...hahas, yupZ, paid .50/hr to do dis kidna stuff...my daily routine hav been to go buy my fave teh peng ard 9plus...den i'll enjoy my drink as i play games/chk mail/msn chat, ocassionally doign some work at the same time, depending on IF i hav any urgetn work to be done OR if im ind e mood to do so...hahas...den i'll wait until lunch when i'll sneak out with anotehr colleague cause we dun feel like "entertaining" the other colleagues(well,office politics' real obvious in de office) or sometimes bo bian we'll follow the rest to lunch and sut thiam thiam...den after lunch i'll go toilet wash up...do abit of my own stuff...den cont working,bt at a slow rate cause im suually realli sleepy after lunch...hahas!:P...den ard 4plus 5pm go tea break...and before i noe it, its time to knock off!!!yay!!!...sounds quite slack rite?...bt very boring...and quite stressed when im thrown with work to be completed in a short time...nevertheless, im considered quite fortunate as compared to many others rite?...though i hate the thought that my eyesight's deteriorating and my tummmy's expanding thks to the nature of office work...hahas...

wat did i wanan blog last wk...oh!i was so so so worried abt my uni entry...not exactly WAS cause i still AM worried...everyone seemed to hav received some letter from NTU, even frens with same score as me...if not some form fo interview fr NTU...bt i've got NOTHING...blaHZ...i noe its onli apr and pple get letters at diff times bt i cant help bt feel scared rite...never though i'll be caught in this situation...oh, it din help that my poly fren told me he got accepted into NUS and NTU...and this colleague told me if im confident of going uni i shld hav gone poly...diaoS...wtv...ARGH!!!

did i emntion tat i get veri upset easily nowadays?...PMS? im too young for that la...i seemed to always be on an emotion roller caoster...very high at times...dn oen little thing can jsut send me rock bottom...must tk of sumth to stop myself from behaving dis way...i noe im rather quick-tempered, i wanan change for the better too...especailyl towards my family...i dun liek de fact tt dey keep tking im nicer to my frens...mayb cause i dun see my frens tat often as i see my family so less occurances of me offending em?..*shrugS*...does learning yoga helps?...hmmmS...

dis morning was tkign n tking...in fact for the past few nights...den 933 was playing HOU LAI...gan chu liang shen...its all over...

when u tot u're leading a cursed life...there's always someone who'e worse off than u...

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me 21?
Monday, April 11, 2005, 05:25 p.m.

You Are 21 Years Old
21
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

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tanned?
Monday, April 11, 2005, 10:08 a.m.

oh, i went sun tannign with wz ytd!!!...tot i'll be real sunburnt due to the scorching sun but guess wat, im NOT! and i dun look very tanned..."abit tanned" as my mum says...blahZ...but oh wells, i've been "white" for so long that i tot i look like a philipino maid this morning as i chk myself out in the mirror...hahas...reminds me of pri-sec sch days...i was chatting with my juniors on thur and kairu said taht she can stil rem how i look when i was in sec2 and tat i look very diff now...i hope that's a compliment?hahas...though i feel that i still look the same...

its been quite awhile...finally got out the the "cocoon" stage whereby i'll just head str for home on a fri ntie and spend the rest of my wkend as a couch potato in front of the teevee...and if luck's nt on my side i'll be bingeing at the same time...hahas...some pple mt say im a loser but i dun tk so, im just doing wat i feel like doing...anyway i surprise myself by goign out with my frens till 11++++ on a SUNDAY NIGHT when i hav work the next day...how abt last fri when i went movies then chat with my frens till nearly 1am???...hahas...though there's beena change, i still dun tink that staying at home is UNcool...:P

4d gathering the other night made me realised that im not leading a fufilling life right now...as in i said i wanted to do so many things b4 i go uni bt not yet completed any...hahas...for instance the bangkok shopping trip...everyone pang sei-ng me...i'll still go, no matter wat,so anyone interested contact me k???hahas...planning to go in may...3mths to go...many things to do...hmZ...

oh btw, nj malay dance got GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!the ONLY JC to get that!!!...did i mention that it means a score of higher than 85? *woohoo*!!! so zai rite!!!...so proud of them!...how i wish i had the chance to go syf too...hmmZ...

oh and another thign, anyone interested in buyign CREATIVE mp3 players? i can help u buy, cz my colleague's fren work in there...so its cheaper than mkt price eg ZEn 5GB 2...im so tempted to get one toO!...but i'll need a decent CPU first...hahas...

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siaNZ...
Monday, March 21, 2005, 10:33 a.m.

imagine u stepped into the office on a Monday morning and you were told to cover recep duty for the WHOLE DAY!...why?cause you're only a temp so they can order you around and ask you to do all the things they dun like to do...im so damn pissed!!!...ARGH!...it din help that im having monday blues...and i hafta do OT for the next 3days coz dis pathetic dependent colleague wants ne to stay with her!!!...for goddness sake!!!...you're already 44!!!...cant u be more independent?!?!?!...you're stressing me out with all your complains!!!...ARGH!!!...i hate this job...i hate my life...

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i hate doing recep!!!
Tuesday, March 8, 2005, 03:01 p.m.

so pai seh when u keep transfering calls wrongly and the person even called to tell u to transfeeer to the right person...so malu!!!!!...no face to see pple le...*hides face*

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post BDAY!:)..
Monday, February 21, 2005, 10:13 a.m.

That stupid prof K’s not around…so yay!…btw, prof K’s my stupid boss…according to my friend, kk=jia jia which is fake…since that boss is so hypocritical, we’ll giver her a nick: PROF K!…haha…lame…but anyway,better write down how I feel quickly.. before she comes back from meeting!…

] like I said earlier on, my bday this year is the BEST that I ever had!!!the beginning was already magical…and it ended off all the more heart-warmign for me…what did I do on my bday itself?…I went to work…haha…my colleague needed help ma, anyway can get more money so why not?…and to my surprise, she bought a mini cake for me and sang a solo bdat song!…so sweet of her!…even though I was working, it was enjoyable,just the two of us without the others…cause its always chaotic in my office…after work went home and my relatives were there…not that I invited them over for my bday bnut my mum did to celebrate cny…had a simple dinner of steamboat..there were fewer relatives at that time cause many of them went off to visit their friends…nevertheless,it feels cosy to just ahng out with them at home…sounds boring?..nahZ…its really interesting to hear my cousins and aunites talk about stuff..and ya,they bought me a bday cake!…that made it the THIRD one for my 19th bday…haha…was running late for my date with junZ_ah seng+chee harn…watched WHITE NOISE at PS..my FIRST midnight show k!!!..but trust em pple, DUN go watch that movie..plain boring!…after that was stayover at ah seng’s…I din wanna bathe but junZ kept insisting…and you guys can guess what happen rite…when I came out of the showers there was a cake (FOURTH ONE!!!)waiting fo rme in the room..and the whole room was lighted with candles..and there is was, the word L A Y Z in the “candles font”..haha..*touched*…as usual we talked till break of dawn and barely slept a few hours…what else did I do on my 1st day as a 19-yr old?I went KBOX!…haha..FIRST time…the service’s lousy, tibits’ expensive and the place’s damn cold..BUT…fun to just sing along with them!…out of tune also dun care!..haha..next time I shall join the A01s to go k songsJ…sang from 2pm tp 7pm.. onli reach home nearly 8pm?.. my dad’s face was stormy..but oh wells, I dun care…its MY bday…haha…

wanan thank those who’ve remembered my bday!-maly,ann,szeling,eehui,cindy,siewying,Gabriel,wanjing,beat(roX!),zek,maz,angel,pearyln,hweeching,chee harn,ah seng,junZ,luQ,matt,weichee,zhenZ,yingxin,ailinailin,soonheng,chungui,AI REN!,marco,jocey…luv ya all!J

feeling AWFULLY SINFUL to have eaten FOUR cakes(not the whole cake la!) and lotsa junkies..but…its MY bday!…haha…great beginning,hopefully an even better year ahead!…(“,)

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~^*happy birthday layZ!*^~
Saturday, February 19, 2005, 11:52 a.m.

yupZ!..layZ's 19 le!!!...one more year to hitting the twenties!!!...how do i feel now?..GREAT!...had a pleasant surprise...was talking to junZ on the phone then she say she'll call me back...in the end zhenZ called, chatted cause she say she wanna be the first oen to wish me happy bday!...and guess wat...at 11.56pm, she said" lay lay, do you believe that im downstairs now?"...haha..and i heard weichee's voice too..so..yupZ!!!...2 great friends came over my house to wish me happy bday!!!...so funny, they bought this mini heart-shaped cake fom breadtalk and everytime they wanna light up the candle and sing bday song, the candle went off...then we RETOOK the "scene" 3times before they finally staged a nice opening...haha...thanks!...really touched...something which i only heard pple say and watch on the tv actually happened to me!..*woohoo*!!!..i was ecstatic!...or rather still AM...haha...we took photos and talked...updating about each other's life...(",)...i felt the connection with zhenZ back...so glad to feel that...*smileZ*...oh,they gave me a daisy and bought drinks-BU SHUANG...the milk cum gassy drink(-_-")...weird rite..haha..lets say plain water taste better than that:p...but do try pple!...so yar...talked till nearly 2am then they took cab home...kinda guilty that they spent so much money, with the travelling aroudn and stuff...and they still want to get me an official present...so sweet...love ya two! *muackZ*

i couldnt sleep when i went home...just so so excited with what's just happened...for once,i looked forward to my bday!...its indeed a great feeling to be loved by your friends...*hugZ*...to think that i was having some negative thoughts and bingeing before that...but oh wells, i kan kai many stuff le...justin a mere few hours' time...i wanna move on...i want a better life and i gotta work towards it:)...oh ya, im in my office now, working la...supposedly working but bday gal deserve some time off to blog rite?...haha...and know what, my colleague bought me a mini cake and she asng bady song for me!!!..so SWEET!...haha...so i had taht choc cake for breakfast...awfully sinful!...but i DUN CARE!...haha...must learnt o take soem things lightly ma...

now its onli 12noon...6hours to end of work?..then got some programme...and next week meeting many friends...looking forward to meeting them!...oh, did i mention that my aunt's buying me a dig cam for my bday?...i feel so blessed!:)

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S I A N
Thursday, February 17, 2005, 09:49 a.m.

im stranded at fifth floor doing recep...AGAIN...HOW INTERESTING...must be sheryl got something against me...obviously cause ytd when kat called me she overheard the word INTERVIEW...yes,im trying to find a new job,why not:P...this job is quite good paying,but there's other thigns to consider what...my colleagues all gone le...you suX big time,so fake...what's the point of staying?...im staying only because of the money and distance lor...else you think what,you're such a NICE boss meh...blahZ:P... went this colleague's house last night!...for cny la..also to meet up with another colleague who left the company le...her house so zai sia!...condo!!!...and its not those very small and crammed kind,but really big and spacious!...she drives a car...got 2kids and a husband who's a business man...she can jolly well nto work and stay at home shake leg,but she chose to work cause she's committed to the company having worked there for so many years..and she dun wana lose touch to the world too...think she's quite admirable...that's the kind of life i wanna lead in future!:)...haha...

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Tuesday, February 15, 2005, 09:58 a.m.

heyZ!...haben written for a long time!...im just lazy..plain lazy...to a certain extent,nto wanting to review wwhat happened...first things first,i had a weird dream!...haha...but know what,its the FIRST time i slept through the night without any disturbances at all!...no loo visit in the middle of the night then cant sleep that kind...strangely,im still tired this mornign when i woke up...probably working blues...haha...but its a good start to getting rid of the dark rings underneath my eyes!!!... working's made me realised lotsa things...the most obvious one is the importance of money...i do know that money's not easy to come by,but when you actually gotta enudure hours of plain boredom in the office or do labourious manual work,then can one truly understand the meaning of "you reap what you sow"(if it correct?haha..)...and then of course, the big ugly word out there!...you think you've seen enough of hypocrites, sabotages and the adeverse effects of education in school?...well then, you're very wrong...in my mere existence of 2months in my company, i've seen it all...and believe me you not,its an even higher leveL!...haha...my department have 4 other colleagues excluding me...now,3 out of 4 of them have left,with the remaining one constantly talking about leaving too...haha...drama rite...still got the conflicts...office politics...struggle to rise to the top...diaoZ...my boss is such an elite-team-oriented person...she strives to kick off the remaining colleague who doesnt hold any qualifications at all but mind you,she's really experienced and good at her work!...she directly told my colleague her shortcomings in qualifications so she souldnt expect too much in her pay as compared to a diploma holder...the receptionist who's under HR too told my boss that she wanted a change of job scope,my boss downgraded her by saying she only got O's cert what she expect and refuse a transfer(-_-")... kinda sian diao by what i've seen and heard here...imagine after a few more years of studying, we'll be officailly in the working world...woahS... on a lighter note, i conclude that i had a great week!...apart from the non-stop eating thanks to the temptations of great food and new year goodies(haha!)...its great meeting up with relatives...and of course even better when they pass good remarks about me...haha...and to know that some of my friends are doing well's good for me too...though worried for one...anyways pple, time to meet up!!!..date me!!!...:)

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:(
Wednesday, January 12, 2005, 09:51 a.m.

i cant smile...i realli cant...it feels as if there's a knife stuck deep into my heart...it seems to have been dere since sec3?...just that the extent which it hurts varies...now its hurting me...alot...i've FAILED...again...went for the dj challenge with jing and xiu...they got in...i din...i'll be lying if i say im okie...i expected myself not to get in but when i get to know of the news, it hit me hard...i was smacked right on my face...i hate this feeling!!!...i hate failing...again and again...over and over again...cant god give me a break?...can i have a morale booster?...pls pls pls?...*SIGH*...pls give me a chance in life...i need it...desperately...

i feel stupid...crying as i giv my fren advice via msn...pretneding nth ever happen...pathetic..

my eyes' swollen now...felt as if i was in sec3...TAT period of time...im so tired...

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dreamS
Monday, January 10, 2005, 04:16 p.m.

Write down all your dreams.

If you could do anything, what would it be?

Go on, write it down.

Even if tis ridiculous, write it down.

No one else will ever see it, so what's the harm if you put it down on a piece of paper?

What's the harm? I'll tell you the harm. once its in black and white, once it's written down, it seems possible. not quite so ridiculous. not quite airy-fairy. And, once something seems even remotely possible, it starts to grow. like a baby growing inside you, your idea-your dream-grows, takes from you, feeds off you,gathering strength, slowly becomign part of you until it's ready to be born. To become something tangible in its own right. Then, without realising it, nothign else seems as exciting or important or worthy. Everything you do comes back tom your dream. Comes back to whether your current life is helping to feed, nurture and strengthen your dream. Next thign you know, you're pacing the floor of your bedroom fretting about your decision.Dreams.

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ponned...work!!!:P
Monday, January 3, 2005, 07:59 p.m.

haha...first woking day of 2005...and i ponned it:P..haha...just shiver at the thought of having to endure through the cold the whole day...cause it was REALLI COLD this morning ma...in the end it run out to be okie the whole day:P...but oh wells, called my supervisor and said i had sumth on so cant go lo...and she happily said"oh, okie." in a kinda cheerful note...its either she's in a gd mood or she knows tat i pon and cant be bothered...haha...felt kinda guilty la, supposed to finish this invoice and i wasted by not goign to work today...haha...nto to forget i spent it on buying an oven!!! finally bought an oven le!!!...its a mini wan la, cost me .90...i was happily carrying the oven home with the ingredients i bought to bake choc chip cookies!...in the end i realised that i forgot to buy the weighing scale(-_-")...had to go back and all the while i was cringing on the realisation tat the value in my ez link card is decreasing liek siao...blahZ...stupid adult fare!...started pouring and mixing since 4pm, now jsut cleared everythig...the results?...eh...burnt cookies...haha... i must work hard!!!...

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new year resolution
Friday, December 31, 2004, 08:31 a.m.

a brand new me!...

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true?
Saturday, December 18, 2004, 10:21 p.m.

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but those not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

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busy?...
Saturday, December 18, 2004, 09:04 p.m.

as usual,its been a LONG time since i last blogged!!!..to tk tat i missed blogging after major events like PROM...haha...mayb i just sub-consciously din wana talk abt it?...mahZ,nth bad happened during rpom la..everyone was nice and pretty,as glam as i thought it would be ba,but in a way abit disappointed...everyth's just over in de twinkling of an eye...to the point that i felt this whole thing was so superficial...and yes, im one of the superficial pple?...dun understand?...i dunno wat im talking too..haha...yupZ, everyone look pretty!!!...especialy my ai ren, so you nu ren wei!!!:) was feelign kidna sad during prom, cz it means my jc life is officailly over.. not tat i will miss cramming for exams!...but i'll miss my frens...my juniors...de familiar TA27 classrm...teachers...i growing up...

din slp de whole nite...and went str to work de next monring!..and i managed to get thru it!...i admit i was feeling real slepy at some point of time but no choice!...once i reach home on 9th, i slpt fr 7plus in de evening str till de nex morning...before leaving for work..AGAIN...ya...working's gd cz i can earn money!...haha..and gain experience, learn some stuff...but its scary...coz it means stepping into the big ugly world beforehand...

went sunway lagoon 12/12-15/12..at first din reali expect much...cz i'll be dere wif 7kids!!!...ranging fr 5-12yrs old...and de rest are adults over 30yrs old...haha...tat makes me de onli YOUNG adult! *beams*...crap...haha...surprisingly, its de FIRST time i realli enjoyed myself after As!...de rides were exciting!(although i hafta do many thrill rides on my own...)...de food dere's damn nice!...chldnt resis tde temptations!...ate alot!...now im back to square one:(...oh wells...tot i could get de gd tan but alas!...onli got a slight tan(-_-")...gonna go swmming pool tan tmr!:P...haha...yupZ, realli enjoyed myself dere...first time overseas without ani worries!...no hw to complete...no projects to rush...only th is i lose out on de money i could hav earned for de 3days i was away from work...haha...HECK!...still got other chances to earn money!...was quite sina t hafta go back to work on thur...all gd things come to an end...bo bian... oh, and one mroe th! i ran into ann at sunway lagoon!..haha...keep bumping into he sia..haha...felt great to see someone familiar dere,i took photo wif her!!!ann;show u when i see u next time!:)oh ya, shopping's real gd dere!!!...lotsaq discounts!...bought 3topS, 1 necklance, hair pinS!!!... could hav bought mroe!..if not for de fact tat im FAT and cant fit into many clothes...haha..got dis barela bargain, a niec pink art top for onli 5sing dollars!!! woohoo!!!...tk im real gd at finding gd bargains...haha

went for ncc COC dinner ytd...felt so out dere wif my dyed hair!...and de fact tat many juniors dunno me(coz i MIA a logn time le!)made things even worse...de onli pple i could talk to weere maz alvin sebes ian...aniway, ging to the dinner made me tk of de past...the gd old times i've spent in ncc...brought back many regrets...the incompetence to juggle btw schwork, ncc and nj cca...couldnt do lotsa thigns whcih i wanted in ncc...so wat tat i was de secretary of CLT club, got outstanding clt award, and gold cert?...something's just missing...*sigh*...i dun wan anymore regrets in my life!...oh, gt pple say i look gd last nite! *smileZ*...haha..though got some negative ones la...but shld stick to de gd ones, make myself happy!...

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gggrrrrr...freezing cold!!!
Tuesday, December 7, 2004, 12:38 p.m.

yes, its DAMN COLD in the office here!!!...im gonna froze to death soon!...and clever me bought cold barley to drink...how smart can i get man...jz had a quick lunch ar de canteen downstairs,tk de food dere nt bad lay,dun udnerstand y my colleague likes to go out to dis coffeeshop wich onli sells wanton noodles,prawn noodles,fishball noodles..basically, NOODLES(-_-")...no doubt de walk dere is gd la,after sitting de whole day BUT...i need veggies!..so went lunch alone..i dun midn eating alone,btu cant help but get envious when i c thse olevels grad hav lunch 2gether,dey come to do factory work togetehr ma...den at dis moment loneliness sinks in..oh wells, next job i find must hav a workign env wif pple of de same age grp or my frenS!...

speaking of which, i feel like quitting!..act its wat i hav been saying since day1!..haha..first, its so cold!...second, the nature of de work is so sian, third, i feel so underpaid!...bt most imptly, wat my senior said to me mde me realised tat i shld quit...she said tat when she entered ni, she din hav any regrets,all tat she had wanted to do all alone have been done...i dun wan to go uni(if i can make it)with any regrets,and i wish to try out other types of work,so i reckon i'll quit after my sunway lagoon trip ba..no matter wat,must make de dcision soon,else i'll just make life difficult for myself when i keep tking abt it..is a terrible feeling u noe, dis morning i was feelign lerthagic and as i tk of all de gatherings and outings im gonan miss thks to my job, and de fact tt its prom day tmr but is till hafta work half day, cant help having the thought of quitting right away!...haha...

prom is not just an event for us gals to fuss over wat to wear, it made em raelsie lotsa things...how fragile friendshipS can be...how promises can be broken easily...how drastic can jc change a person...i feel tat everyone changes as dey enter jc, but extent which some pple change to is alarming...and its even more scary when tat person's close to u...i seriously hate materialistic pple, but wat can u do when tat person's someone close to u?...im helpless...just cant face u for now...

talked to my rv council frens on sun nite...boy, we realli talked for a long time!!!until all de shops in far east were closed..haha..its realli a gd feeling just sitting dere together, talking abt anith and everyth under the sun...sort of find out tat u're not alone?...though dis feeling fades fast,and soon doubts come in again..sad..nearly teared when i was takling abt "inferiority"..i asked em if i had changed,dey said i've let go and become more open in a way...guss it because i was kinda crazy tat day,keep saying lame stuff..isnt dis how i appear in class too?...somehow its jsut not entirely true ba...being lame and cranky is just a way for me to disguise my true feelings,i dun deliberately do it,it jsut comes naturally,dere's jsut too many unhappy memories for the past few yrS...

watched AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL last nite!...yoanna's simply gorgeous!!!..*woohoo*!!!...haha..realli admire her determination to shed off those weight in order to fulfil her draem of being a top model..and now she relli got it!...it sorta motivate me ti do wat i realli want...u wan something?how badly do u wan it?ow far would u go to have it?...

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human resource work..
Thursday, December 2, 2004, 10:25 a.m.

yupZ...got myself a HR job...my supervisor's away in a meeting, so take de opportnity to blog!..haha..i was blogging halfway den she came to use my com(-_-")..den gotta close everyth without saving..blahZ..act she say i can use de com or read magS when i've got nth to do la...but now im supposed to calculate invoices..eh,dunno wat talking me?basically calculating the no. f hrS de workers did and their salary..its OKIE to do for a few hrS BUT i've been doing such stuff since day1!..its now day3..and i just got a H U G E pile ytd..ard 5cm thick of A4size papers...woah...mayb coz i sway lo, just nice last mth's invoices came in...i've been having totS of resigning since day1!...haha..dunno its due to not used to working life or just me..haha..btu one thing's for sure, im NOT GONNA BE A HUMAN RESOURCE OFFICER when i officially step into working life next time!...its so sian...oh ya, though i onli been here for 3days, office politics are obvious..now i do miss school life...haha, not the exams though!...but hanging out w frenS...cca days...i'll probably take up sumth soon as my "CCA" b4 u(tat is IF i get into u!..haha)...and oh ya, another th i hate abt workign lfie is choosing wat to wear!...my frenS will noe how limited my wardrobe is lor...i always wear the same same clothes when i go out wif em wan...haha...tk im underdressed every single day so far...but who cares!...there's no shuai geS ard..my department's a all-women wan, and im de youngest...no eye candy ard thouh i got a fren here...he's de one who intro me the job,btu seems liek he's quitting soon...*shrugs*...i oso feel likequitting..haha..and its so so boring working here, cause de mwor's monotonous, colleagues are so much older no common topic so my onli source of entertainment is my FM radio..and occassionally internet..so drop me an sms when free!...haha...

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happy?sad?
Monday, November 29, 2004, 11:17 p.m.

My legs are aching now…been out shopping since 11plus…went queensway den town…woah,u pple shld realli go chk out queensway shopping centre!…dere’s dis shop which sells accessories at veri low prices!…earring at 90cents per pairs and necklances at .90!…din buy anith from there though,haha…wanted to go town take a look first…but gonna go back dere soon to get a necklance for promJ…oh,had great bargains at town today!!!…bought this necklance and pendant at 2bucks each!…and dey look realli nice!…eh, or rather my fren gav em to me… thks zhen!…bought 2 other pairs of danglings earring in far east, realli pretty!…din manage to get shoes…what I aw were either ugly or too ex…haha…so gonna stick to those at JP…so yupZ< my whole outfit’s practically bought at JP…haha…hope I wun be underdressed…or wat…*cross fingers*…

oh when I was at queensway rite, saw my ex-GS teacher…we had a long conversation and he was quite funny!..haha…crappign all the way…but after tat I mood went down…he commented that I’ve gained weight…I was so pai she lo…I noe la but when someone really tell u that it’ll probably hit u hard…at least for me lo..but pple dun bcoz of this den next time dun tell me the truth K?haha…I whld rather get sad then cheated..haha..so yupZ…I need to realli lose weight…blahZ…and its especially pressurizing to go out wif a fren who’s pretty and has a gd fig!…I feel so inferior in comparison with her!…must say again that zhen u realli look v glam and chio today!(“,)

and guess wat, I got a job!!!…was so surpirised when de person called me today!…I was shopping at far east lo!…it’s a company call TECHWAH, working as human resource officer…but its basically filing and admin work lo..chey..haha..5-day work,pay’s .50 per hr,is it gd?…tot my fren say …blahZ…tk OT pay is higher per hr, but dunno how much leh, de person was talking so fast…and noe wat, im supposed to go meet this persn in charge tmr at clementi mrt, asked her for her no. in case I cant find her rite, she sy “PREFERABLY NOT”…(-_-”)…diaoZ…wats wrong with giving em her number sia…as if I’ll prank call her…and she told me to expet to see her pull a long face tmr cause its early morning…morning so wat?…can imagine how MICE my working env whld be…but oh wells, a job is better than nth, and dey can accommodate with me taking leave for prom and sunway lagoon so…yupZ…gonna start work tmr…8.30am-5.45pm, so still can ask me out!!!…*grinZ*

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dyed hair!...
Monday, November 29, 2004, 12:51 a.m.

Today’s such a significant day that I must blog…after long considerations, I FINALLY did sumth to my hair!!!..haha…went salon and dyed my hair LIGHT TOBACCO…chim rite?…basically its light brown la…haha…and cut+dye+treatment only !!!…tink it’s a realli gd bargain lo!…and I’ve been spreading words ard abt it, felt that I shld share with my frenS this!…so yupZ, if u wana go do ur hair can ask me where…aniway hope i dun look like ah lian to pple!...('?')

apart fr a family gathering, I met up with an old fren...den we conincidentally met this old fren of mine.. we talked from 5pm to 9pm!..haha…its been a long time man…and her As haben end, still got lit S!…anyway at first I was quite scared to meet her,..cz I;ve always tot that we’ve drifted…but turn out quite well!…talked A LOT and its realli a great feeling catching up…but I cant help but ink of the times when I felt being let down by her…*shrugs*…

eh, anyway talked to my fren just now.. he say his class going sunway lagoon as a class outing!!!so cool!!!..and ard 20ppls going sia!…so on!…A01 lets try to do sumth too ya?…

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*woohoo*!!!
Saturday, November 27, 2004, 11:46 a.m.

hey pple!...this blogskin is so de cute rite!!!...haha..abit not me ya?...wanted to use another one, de BITCH wan...but you see, im not a bitch ant most imptly din manage to put it in so...here's my first blogskin after As!...yupEE!!!

yupZ, As' over!...sory i abit slow...took a few days before i finally get used to not having to study and here to update blog...everyth's oer so i dun wish to comment on the papers anymore...gonna enjoy the times i have!:)...know wat, instead of rejoicing and going out everyday, im like not realli keen on going out...the outside world seems so infamiliar to me now...haha...abit scary toO!...but oh wells, jsut give me some time to get used to being so free ya?haha...

its been great slacking at home!...actually i feel an emptiness in me...like there's no goal, nothign to work towrads to now...STILL, its better than de stupid As!:p...been searching for a job sinec before As end!...still haben find..anione got lobang must tell me k?haha...thanks!...

now that im so free.. i got lotsa things which i wanna do...buy...see...gonan draw up a proper list liek alexis soon!...haha

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